The One

i can't feel my senses, i just feel the cold..
all colors seems to fade away, i cant reach my soul
i would stop running, if i knew there was a chance
it tears me apart to sacrifice it all, but im forced to let go!

the numerous relationships led me to "The One"..
the one who had everything that i need equally..everything is just nice!!
had a friend asked me once, do you love him? Hell Yeah!!
ha i know that trick, its not good enough to trick me..if u ask, do i love him the most? -
this would be very hard to answer..i wont even dare to answer...
its very cruel of me of course..i believe love itself cant bring you anywhere..if you think love can feed you everyday, keep on dreaming and imagine the food on the table when its actually not there!
all those fantasies..damn its great!
i chose someone whom i can love, i feel secured with, the one i can share everything and take me as it is..
I remember someone whom i love very dearly, he's a drug addict..out of hope at early age..
I remember sacrificing everything, my paycheck, my luxury, say anything, he has all of me..
Yet, i loved him..stupid yet it's true!i still do, silly me!!
Dont ask me to erase that feeling and memories with him..it will always be there..

But like it or not, i've chosen my "The One"I feel blessed with him..
He may not be the richest guy
He may not be the most handsome guy (although he looks perfectly handsome to me)
He may not like what i listen to
He may not understand my view of life..
I accept that, he passed every test!! He may not got flying colors in every test, but at least he passed it all!

i hold on to this saying for very long time

= IF U CANT BE WITH ONE YOU LOVED, LOVE THE ONE YOU ARE WITH=